During November I am embarking on the NanoWriMo project, to get my latest book, THE SCENT OF WATER, under way. It's a year's worth of daily devotionals for the first year of bereavement - read the introduction HERE. It will soon move to a new website (Grace2Help) In the spirit of NaNoWriMo, this is unedited, a first draft; we just keep writing! Grant grace ? And comments and suggestions are most welcome.
For we do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize (with our weaknesses)
Jesus understands not just the facts of my grief; he understands the feelings too. He understands the pain, the depression, the hurt of being left alone. Far from being cold and heartless, he is full of tenderness and sympathy. He too knows the full gamut of emotions. Even if those around me try to understand, how can they know just how I am feeling today? Bless them for trying; but I feel that they can't know exactly how it is for me today.
But Lord, you truly do know and you truly do understand. You have experienced every single emotion. Only you can fully sympathise. Let me know your feelings in this with me today.
Emmanuel: God is with us
They will call him Immanuel"--which means, "God with us."
Matthew 1:23 (NIV)
God, you are in this with me. You know how it is; you know I have to go through this path of grief. But you are here in it WITH ME. And I am so glad I don't have to go through it alone. Thank you, thank you. Keep close to me today Lord, otherwise I fear won't get through it. Just saying your name, Emmanuel, means a great deal to me today.
God with me.
So let us come boldly to the throne of our gracious God. There we will receive his mercy, and we will find grace to help us when we need it most.
Hebrews 4:16 (NLT)
It is not a failure to come to the throne of grace; it isn't a sign of weakness. Far from feeling that there's something wrong with me or that I'm not spiritual if I have this depression and huge sense of grief, I can actually know that this is a normal part of being human and alive, that our God welcomes me to come to him. At the throne of grace there is help when I need it most - his love and mercy and pure grace are there, ready to be poured out over me. Every day. Whenever I need it. And how I need it today.
Grace to help. I need that grace today.
He told them, "My soul is crushed with grief to the point of death."
Matthew 26:38 (NLT)
It cost the Saviour to walk the path of suffering and death. He experienced the deepest feelings, emotions and pain. Experienced them to the point of being so crushed, so depressed, that life itself seemed almost pointless. In the depth of my own sorrow, I am yet again amazed that he could reach this point - could know, could truly know, just how it is. Hallelujah, what a Saviour!